wow. so im bored with life

i mean with all the shit i do, how the fuck did i pull this one off

let me just make a list, just because i love to make them, (not really but its easier and im a lazy mother fucker :-P) anyway so here is my list

• i do enough drugs that i shouldn't be.
• and dont sit there and tell me dont, and all this other shit, bc to be perfectly honest, i enjoy doing them, so if u have a problem with that, oh well. its my choice. i like them. even my best friend, (who is HIGHLY) against them, doesn't bitch at me anymore, and has actually come 2 acceptence with them. and didn't say shit when i did them in front of her in the car today :-P which was awesome btw. lol, i know where my next pay check is going
• All the friends i have,  
• which intern entails drama
• which intern entails emotion
• which hell, makes life intresting
• All the fights i get into
• oooo, ur gona love this, i cursed out some stupid fucker last night, he called johns phone, and just like went off on him, he was a pussy bc he blocked his number, so after john chews out the loser, sean takes the phone, and is like meet me at fios u dick, (sean being sean, would go and kill the guy, he has mucles out to there, and always has a really sharp knife on him) and then i get the phone and im like hun, go grow a mother fucking dick, bc obvioulsy u dnt have one, and then he calls me a sluttly whore and im like, hun, wow, get over urself and grow a dick (any one who knows me knows i have fun with life, while maintaing my virginity, no matter how many guys i like and or hoookup with. lol. so i just laugh, and was like, i probally have gotten more then u will ever get and was like, if u wana grow the fuck up, come find us bitch, and hung up. i was nice and pumped (and high, lmao)
• All the writing i use to do, hell, that would take up like all of my time
• but i kinda had to stopp that, oh well
• All the books i read 24/7
• which i have to go to the libeary tomorrow to get more of
• All the painting i do, (anyone who has seen "the wall" knows what im talking about
• The time i hang out with john
• lol, the stuff i do with john
• no not like that
• and other stuff im to tired to type,

anyway, im sick of this list, i just really felt like updating and saying IM BORED. can anyone fix that. lol

anyway i g2g,

mL

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he chose not to break up with me.

<3 this is y i love him.

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so lets see

•  im going out with this guy john.
• who i think wans to break up with me
• since the 1st. (day we started going out, not day since he wanted to break up with me)
• at least 7 people want me to break up with him
• including the 4, (4 guys he really really hates)
• im back to my bad habbits, plus some.
• i've met the guy who is amazing but very creppy and stakerish
• who just happens to have a girl friend
• ohhhhh ull love this one, i told chuck, ( u might remeber me mentioning him in a few past post) yeah i love h im and i told him no. yea, NO. even when he said break up with john and go out with HIM! the thing i have wanted him to say to me since he got to NY!!! and i said no..... suprisingly
• and now john is like about to break up with him
• and oh yea... chuck is going back to florida... for good.... like in a month
• and im uber stressed
• so stressed i was making myself sick
• me and kerri went from being friends to fighting to back to being freinds

and a bunch of other crap...

im kinda tired, im gona go. mL

YAY its almost my birthday, only 3 days

lol

Going away camping.

i know u all will miss me uber much, lol, ill be back on the 5th of september

leave me messages to read when i get back

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